on a cold monday night, i thought to myself...negative thoughts
i feel i am useless.
i feel i am a good for nothing.
i feel i am not good at anything.
i feel like i am a failure.
in fact...
the heavens "cried" today.
and so do i feel like crying.
am i born to be a leader - to lead and not be led??
why is it so hard for me to express my thoughts and what i have to say?
do i care too much for myself, thus being "in a world of my own" and not bother about the existence of others?
why am i so quiet, so timid, so shy? is this who you know?
i just won't learn my lessons. no matter how many times it happened.
somehow or rather, i am not myself. i want myself back! i want an identity! what is my identity?
my phone has been very silent. who cares about sending messages to me anyway??
i'm just an non-existent figure. except when needed.
drowning it away with an iced,cold tiger.