i am beginning to think - with a personality like mine, what type of job i should be suitable for?

a friend once told me that, he knew an office 9 to 5, deskbound job wasn't for me.

at my age, what do i really need?

i think (or rather) i need a social life. cuz i like staying out - whether outdoors or whatsoever. as long as i am away from the desk and walking around meeting the needs of others, i am happy and fulfilled.

perhaps another friend was right that i make myself feel miserable, by thinking negatively that i have no life.
honestly, i really would love to meet up with old friends. whether it's just over a cup of coffee or a meal, i will be happy. but i haven given into fate that i can never meet them, cuz at the very last hour things happened. it seriously sucks, even though i pretend that nothing happened. or maybe cuz i am already immune to it, as i could have predicted that it will not work out.

which is why i guess i need to know more people than just who i meet in church.
i can say that, among the 389 contacts in my phone, most of them are there for show. cuz i don't sms them, just keeping track of who i have known as friends.


so tell me tell me, what should i be doing?

*sighs* and a huff

i wonder, does anybody visit this space?

i would have wanted to see Alonso, Raikkonen and Hamilton standing on the podium after the race.

but Raikkonen "buanged" and could not complete the race. but he is so dashing... blonde hair, blue eyes... aw...

and oh, camera caught a bit of hamilton's brother. a bit cuter than lewis lah, i think...

ok lah, quite exciting to watch the F1 race. watching the cars doing their turn, gaining opportunities for overtaking.

vroom vroom vroom...

hahahaha!!!!

and again...
i wasted the Sunday snoozing away...

sianz...

Christmas wish list 2008

first item i wish to have: a punch bag

must be wondering why that? so that i can punch it whenever i feel down. vent the unhappiness and anger on it.
at the same time, can get some exercise. hahaha!!!

Labels: wish list

choices, options, decisions...

how? what? which one?

alamak... jia lat...

*sighs*

things to do

• finish reading book


• write review on book


• catch up on TARA 3


• start watching Heroes 3 online

yup, that is a list of what i need to do/complete. haha!

i can't wait for the public holiday next week!!!

can i be selfish?

i want many things that i hardly got as a kid.
i want to live better than now.
i want things my way.

am i asking for too much?
i don't know why am i wanting good things so badly.

good is never enough.

i just have to write about this.

people: me and john chang
location: reads@hpc, 3rd level

me walking across the hall, seeing john at reads
me: hi john!
john: hi.
just before i stepped out of the room
john: what's the date today?
me: er... 21st!
me walks out

lagi random post than the one before this. but i kinda find it amusing.

i want...

the sentence can be completed in many ways with the above phrase.

and it is also a phrase which most of us would use.



why am i posting such random stuff?
no idea.

am i tired?

i don't know.
perhaps i am.


so, what's next?

i need a compass to point me to the right direction.

caught a bit of the Paralympic Games images on tv earlier.

they may be physically disabled, but they also have the desire to win at the games. the competitiveness amongst players, the aggressive playing. you could also clearly see their emotions when they know that they had lost the game or match. the disappointment in their eyes and faces.

that made me realise that, they are no different from us normal human beings. we want to be successful in the things we are passionate about. we do not want disappointment.

my heart goes out to them. i salute the paralympic athletes.


I have often dreamed, of a far off place,
Where a hero's welcome, would be waiting for me,
Where the crowds will cheer, when they see my face,
And a voice keeps saying, "this is where I'm meant to be."

I'll be there someday, I can go the distance
I will find my way, if I can be strong,
I'll know every mile, will be worth my while,
When I go the distance I'll be right where I belong.

Down an unknown road, to embrace my fate
Though the road may wander, it will lead me to you,
And a thousand years, would be worth the wait
It might take a lifetime, but somehow I'll see it through.

And I won't look back, I can go the distance
And I'll stay on track, no I won't accept defeat
It's an uphill slope, but I won't lose hope
Till I go the distance, and my journey is complete

But to look beyond the glory is the hardest part
For a hero's strength is measured by his heart

Like a shooting star, I will go the distance
I will search the world, I will face its harms
I don't care how far, I can go the distance
Till I find my hero's welcome, waiting in your arms

I will search the world, I will face its harms,
Till I find my hero's welcome, waiting in your arms
-- Go The Distance by Michael Bolton

i enjoyed myself today, making new friends and the excitement ahead.

i saw adults and young people who are committed to changing the lives of other youngsters through volunteerism. just how many adults out there are really into investing time into youth, making them into people who can contribute back to the community?

now, i am asking myself - how can i help? what areas can i contribute? can i help pull strings and tie 2 organisations together? how can our busy youth get involved? do they see it as something that would benefit others instead of just focusing on themselves?

in what ways an impact can be created and spread around? would working with another group of youth be more rewarding than what i am doing right now? what is the outcome that i want to see?

so many questions, but so few answers. i don't even know how to phrase the questions proper.

am i too complicated?

dang it...
i'm now torn in between the new iPod Nanos and the new iPod Classic.

will i be listening and storing 30k of music and songs?
or, will i even have 4k of songs to listen to?

argh~~ guess i will have to see the real thang then decide what to get.
then again, i would not know what to engrave on it if i order it online.


word of the day: techno-lusting
definition: the desire to own latest gadgets

lolz... i walked into LV shop at Taka today yesterday. (just realised it is after midnight)

and the friend who arranged to have lunch forgot to inform that she isn't feeling well to meet us. how wonderful to travel all the way down town and got "aeroplaned".

mooncake fiesta at Taka. tried the lychee-tini(lychee+martini) mooncake. tasted not bad.


managed to get home in time and picked up the call from Downunder.

and i am tasked with homework.

i bought new jeans. 2 pairs in fact. Giodarno didn't have the belt i wanted. time to hunt for nice looking belt(s).

AND........


I FOUND MY ANGKLUNG BAND T-SHIRT!!!
thought that i had lost it at some camp, but NO! it was all the while in the wardrobe, stacked under random clothings that i hardly wear.
since i have found the shirt, which means i also cleared away the very old clothings from the wardrobe. was laughing at all the old stuff that i wore before. no more old clothings, only current clothes in there. but there ain't much more space to add new clothes though.

time for a new and bigger wardrobe? i should drag myself to Muji and buy storage shelves with the vouchers i have.


next to clear will be the remaining bookshelves. i had previously cleared 3 and reshuffled some stuff. but there is still 5 to clear and make room for stuff.

i wonder when will the old PCs, disc players and many other useless stuff be cleared from my room...

an amazing, great mass cook-out indeed.

God was awesome. He blessed us with perfect weather for the entire afternoon. i am happy to see the sun and get some vitamin D. haha!!!

it was fun seeing everybody dashing to out of the park under the rain.



i'm tired for now.


and oh yes, i stepped back onto SAC grounds today after a long long time... took the opportunity (mom went to pick up stock @ cafe) to go look see look see what has changed.

i noticed shelter was built on the passage way to the music room. yar, i always remembered we had to run across the slope to the music room whenever it rained.
more chairs and tables were set at the pond area and the front of the level 1 classrooms. they have cool chairs at the back of the canteen too... it is like so 'shiok' to go to school now lah... lolz... and of cuz, i saw the angklungs hanging at our CCA area.

too bad i didn't venture to the staff room to check out which 'chers were there. hahaha!

driving, drums?
driving, drums?
driving, drums?
driving, drums?

which should i do first? hahaha...

choices choices.

how bout let's take a poll?!


lolz...

i'm proud to say that...

i know a journalist.

she's a friend-cum-ex-colleague.


i know you won't be seeing this, but i love you friend. chill at your tough job kay...


edited
maybe, just maybe i should go learn to mix cocktail. hmm... there's a smoothie recipe book my mom bought. and in there, they teach you how to make margarita, martini and all... seriously, i should go buy the cocktail shaker and give it a try eh?

and so, the entire family (except for 1) is now proudly SONY ERICSSON converts. YAHOO!!!

- 2 w960i w910i
- 1 c902
- 1 k800i

i very much would like to have the G900i. then maybe with that, i will get an iPod Classic?? iPod Touch is tempting too cuz of the Wi-Fi. but with G900, it has that function too. so yeah... kinda in a dilemma.

well, pros and cons to both the Apple gadgets. so still considering...



oh, and the mother has abandoned the kids at home and left to JB to look at babies.