i wished there's something (pet, game console, or some form of entertainment) that i can look forward to when i get home, that is able to keep me entertained and my mind sane.

but there is none.

i know i will never get to own a pet.
having an xbox or playstation could be a complete waste of money.

and there is nothing much i can do on a weekend.
i can't play music. i can't do sports. i do not have a particular hobby. and even if i had one, i guess it would only be me who would be doing it. because, i haven't found somebody i know who shares the same interest as i do.

friends. who are they and where are they? do they even exist? have i been forgotten?

life, it's just empty now.

i feel that i need some self enrichment.