i am beginning to think - with a personality like mine, what type of job i should be suitable for?

a friend once told me that, he knew an office 9 to 5, deskbound job wasn't for me.

at my age, what do i really need?

i think (or rather) i need a social life. cuz i like staying out - whether outdoors or whatsoever. as long as i am away from the desk and walking around meeting the needs of others, i am happy and fulfilled.

perhaps another friend was right that i make myself feel miserable, by thinking negatively that i have no life.
honestly, i really would love to meet up with old friends. whether it's just over a cup of coffee or a meal, i will be happy. but i haven given into fate that i can never meet them, cuz at the very last hour things happened. it seriously sucks, even though i pretend that nothing happened. or maybe cuz i am already immune to it, as i could have predicted that it will not work out.

which is why i guess i need to know more people than just who i meet in church.
i can say that, among the 389 contacts in my phone, most of them are there for show. cuz i don't sms them, just keeping track of who i have known as friends.


so tell me tell me, what should i be doing?

*sighs* and a huff

i wonder, does anybody visit this space?