grow growing grew
rrright... weird title for an entry i admit.
some people said i have grown up much in terms of from a playful "kiddy" to a more serious person with a purpose in life.
but i asked myself, "have i really grown up that people see the change in me?" well maybe, since my vision has been affirmed.
so, what or how has my current work helped me grow? am i even growing? what have i accomplished thus far in terms of the initial goal/purpose that i thought i was prepared for?
i really don't know...
am i prepared to hang on and do whatever i am doing at the moment, with some tweaking to the current job scope? or would i be better off just doing what i do best - being a lay leader at Powerhouse+.
honestly, i need time to interact with people. i can't be bogged down with work all the time that i do not have a social life outside of where i am stuck with. at the same time i feel that, by multi-tasking, i tend to lose focus of what my primary role is.
i kinda miss the good ole' days where i can just come and go anytime i like, or be involved in whatever or whenever i can or time permits me to. i feel i am handling too much at one time at the moment. and sometimes, i sense that i am taken for granted 24/7, just cuz i am in charge, anybody can just ring me anytime and get the things they need. seriously sometimes, going to church can be quite a chore at times. which i know that should never never be.
everyday i play a game of hide and seek (imagine indian movies and coconut trees) which is darn ridiculous. facing unreasonable, irrational people is really a pain in the [fill in the blank with what you like].
so, is it time to move on? i think it is about time to do something for myself.
what do you think?
oh Lord, i feel so lost now. am i really prepared to sacrifice what i have now? i really don't know what to do next. the heart is telling me to pursue the vision that came out of nowhere, which i certainly believe that it was You who placed that burden/need in my heart. on the other hand, there are other circumstances which needs decision making.
just give me a sign Lord... i know i am dreaming big about the vision in mind. but without action, the dream will always be a dream. i would like to turn it into a reality...
i know the clock is ticking and i will need to give an answer. *tick tock tick tock*
not the happy, jovial person as before.
rrright... weird title for an entry i admit.
some people said i have grown up much in terms of from a playful "kiddy" to a more serious person with a purpose in life.
but i asked myself, "have i really grown up that people see the change in me?" well maybe, since my vision has been affirmed.
so, what or how has my current work helped me grow? am i even growing? what have i accomplished thus far in terms of the initial goal/purpose that i thought i was prepared for?
i really don't know...
am i prepared to hang on and do whatever i am doing at the moment, with some tweaking to the current job scope? or would i be better off just doing what i do best - being a lay leader at Powerhouse+.
honestly, i need time to interact with people. i can't be bogged down with work all the time that i do not have a social life outside of where i am stuck with. at the same time i feel that, by multi-tasking, i tend to lose focus of what my primary role is.
i kinda miss the good ole' days where i can just come and go anytime i like, or be involved in whatever or whenever i can or time permits me to. i feel i am handling too much at one time at the moment. and sometimes, i sense that i am taken for granted 24/7, just cuz i am in charge, anybody can just ring me anytime and get the things they need. seriously sometimes, going to church can be quite a chore at times. which i know that should never never be.
everyday i play a game of hide and seek (imagine indian movies and coconut trees) which is darn ridiculous. facing unreasonable, irrational people is really a pain in the [fill in the blank with what you like].
so, is it time to move on? i think it is about time to do something for myself.
what do you think?
oh Lord, i feel so lost now. am i really prepared to sacrifice what i have now? i really don't know what to do next. the heart is telling me to pursue the vision that came out of nowhere, which i certainly believe that it was You who placed that burden/need in my heart. on the other hand, there are other circumstances which needs decision making.
just give me a sign Lord... i know i am dreaming big about the vision in mind. but without action, the dream will always be a dream. i would like to turn it into a reality...
i know the clock is ticking and i will need to give an answer. *tick tock tick tock*
not the happy, jovial person as before.